Tuesday, June 07, 2005
All for love,
the heavens cried,
for love was crucified.
Dear Lord,
It's today did I fully comprehend that my Life is created upon consuming those blood You shed on that fateful Friday. Time and time again, I find myself being seen as a warrior who fears nothing, yet not being understood that even winners can get wounded in the fight. I have had my times that I run home when I fall down, times that I want to burst - from those tears in me I am hiding.
I have been changed - by the situations and circumstances that crossed my life. Some situation mould my life and test my characters. Others just simply taught me to react in a way not out of my being. Slowly, I realized that my heart stray away; from the One so fair I run away. Also, my heart stray from people whom I can no longer feel. Wall was built and they were shutted out little by little.
Love. I have long forgotten how to bring it out in actions, and perhaps, in speeches. Each time I hear All for Love, I am dumbfounded. Lord, if You're the only One that infuse Love into me, if Love is the only thing that can make a way out in life, then why, why didn't I allow it to? It is so easy to sing of everything I need is You, that You're my beginning and You will be my Forever. But carrying it out is different. Or perhaps, Lord, I have yet to strive and give my best to live it out.
Lord, You know each and everything that happens to me, I ask of You to help me allow Your Work to be done in me. As much as I know not of the things I do at times, may the Cross draw me back to You again. I want to, with all my heart, to one day join the angels in singing Your Love.
Help me Lord, to forever cherish the sacrfice You have made, the Grace You have always give me, and the Mercy I am bestowed upon. Help me to be compelled to Love You even more, to deal with things with Your Love. Teach me Lord, to love all over again. I am beyond words to express anymore.
maoed.]
at 8:13 PM
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+++smiles.
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life in the kingdom//
neb//
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phs'04//
seventeen//
siMpsOnx//
student conference//
the ultimate dare//
+++books.
a love worth giving// a woman's answer to anger// every young woman's battle// helping others without hurting yourself// journeys of friendship//
if you want to walk on water, you've got to get out of the boat// in the grip of grace// love beyond reason// loving God with all your mind// recapture the world//
the friendship's of women// traveling light// wild at heart// words that hurt words that heal//
